Why do I do it...?

I blame it on the lady who directed our children's and youth choir when I was a kid .... She would put together these amazing productions with costumes and sets and just made it all so ... BIG. It was wonderful, although I do remember making fun at the time and sometimes hating that we had rehearsals, but all in all it made good memories. Now I direct the children's choir at my church and our spring musical is next weekend...and all I want to do is throw my hands in the air and skip out on the whole thing. I want it GOOD and for the kids to be proud of what they've done and have memories of being in these plays that teach them great lessons about God and scriptures ... and in the weeks before the presentation, it always seems like nobody cares. I don't even know what number this is in my resume' of children's choir presentations ... I've lost count and it's probably a good thing. Some people think I'm crazy for doing it. Some of the people who see me in action think I'm crazy in HOW I do it...it's a little chaotic and so much of it stays in my head until the week before the play so that nobody else can see what I "see" when a bunch of kids are standing around a hymnal on the floor where, next week, there will be a "massive rock" in the middle of the cafe' ... or the card table that, next week, will be transformed into a diner's kitchen .... People are tired of hearing my response, "It's all in my head" .... I know they are, but it's how I work and the end result is (much of the time) a good thing. In the meantime, I'm an insane woman and people are mostly staying out of my way. I have to go transform a pile of cardboard and tape into a jukebox....